new friends and old friends coming together.

i love it with all of my heart.

i have the flu. it sucks. but life is good.

they say that sometimes, the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most, but what if you cant face what scares you the most? what if you just cant let go? what if letting go is the thing that scares you the most? what if?

In the end, the Journey, is the Destination.

Its been so long since ive really really updated this thing.

I dont konw why. i used to write all the time in here. but i would write about simple things. Daily happenings. Simple things.

Now everyone writes with emotion and smart like.

Sometimes i cant write like that.

So i write stories. Im writing a book. Well trying to at least. Dealing with twin 21 month olds for the past two weeks had kinda forstalled that. But when i return home and get my room back together then i will continue writing. Dont ask me what it is about cause i will not tell you. Its not that im ashamed, its just something that is mine for now. Eventually ill share it with people, (maybe). Dont be expecting some big philosophical book either. Because its not one of those.

but sometimes i can be philosophical. or wise beyond my years one of my friends once told me. He asked me how i know so much. and i say because i listen and i learn. I learn from my mistakes and i take that into my life. i dont ignore it. i continue on with it. i embrace it. accept it.

and

I am finallhy content in my life. really really content. Ive lost friends and ive gained friends. IVe lost friends i didnt think i could ever life without. but yet, here i am. Living my life. Im  happy. Content. Ive moved on from them. they no longer influence my mood for the day. I no longer carry the weight of something i did not do around. I only accept what i know in my heart of hearts that i have done. Good and Bad. Sometime we dont accept the good things that we do in life. And that also hurts us. Life your life for yourself. Not for someone else. Do what you want to do, what your heart needs you to do. Admit the wrongs in your life, and come at peace with them. I know everyone says that, and its easier said than done, but eventually, once you do that, everything will be alright. To bring up old scchool lyrics. Yellowcard once said:

  Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong. Believe.
Be strong. Believe.

Believe.
such a powerful small word.

Love to all.

Think about the love inside the strength of heart
Think about the heroes saving life in the dark
Think about the chance I never had to say
Thank You for giving up Your life that day

OH yeah. Im a dirty blonde again. :o)

 Just thought i would post some of thse up here!

                  to all.

Greys Anatomy...is so addicting.

So is House.